I am so flipping tired of triggers!!
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|Sat, 06-11-2011 - 2:36am|
for the most part I dont deal with them often and not like I did tonight. But I have to wonder if why it hit so hard is what was said is not something I thought I woud ever hear again? And I know the person who said it didnt mean it bad but I let it ruin the rest of the night and here I sit in tears hours later because I am over being damaged!! I want to heal!! I left him six years ago, haven't had contact in at least four years, and in September it will be three years since my divorce!! I am so over all of this and just want the nightmare to stop!! You know we tell people it will stop and get better once you leave but does it really? I didnt cry over the things he said and did when I was with him but now that I no longer am I do? What is wrong with me? Other things people do get to me in ways that shock me too and I dont want to be this way!! I want to laugh at the triggers. I am worried because