I am Trying to Make Positive Changes....
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| Thu, 10-27-2005 - 1:01pm |
In My Life. And it isn't easy. All of a sudden, I woke up one Morning and my entire life was rotten and going down the tubes. My grant for employment ran out at a FANTASTIC work-study job I had, then I got a new job where sexual harrassment was rampant. I got fired from there for not paying close enough attention to detail, I got a new job that was flexible, easy and fun, which is the only thing good in my life. DF filed for bankruptcy because his entire checks were getting garnished from the Chrysler corporation (He is so dumb. Even though his EX W's son totalled it it didn't mean he wasn't responsible!) DF was being a creep because of all the terrible things that were happening. I gained 30 pounds for no reason I can think of and can't fit into any of my clothes (and I have tons)! I am failing 3 out of my four classes and I don't think I will be able to graduate in December as expected. Someone wrecked into my car and I totalled my car. I didn't get much back, and what I did get--most of it went to the lien company cuz I took out a loan when DF went bankrupt. I got another car but I HATE it and it is a two door so my mom and grandma have a hard time getting in and out. I had to take out another 500 loan to help finance df's parent's 50th wedding anniversary.
Finally, I think things are getting better. DF gave me 250.00 for half of the money I spent on the wedding. I got the second half of my financial aid money, paid off all loans, the insurance paid off my title loan, and I paid my insurance for 6 mos. I am trying to focus in school and work but it is SO hard. i started seeing a counselor and a psychiatrist once a week each. I also started seeing a medical doctor. All of them are here on campus so I can transfer to my student account and pay the bill once a month. It is expensive for me but it isn't too bad with Df's insurance. I have to focus on health. My physical and emotional symptoms of depression were too much for me to manage on my own. I am hoping that switching meds and upping the dose will help me.
I have also vowed to drink 32 oz of water every hour (at least when I am at my desk at work because it is convenient). I have vowed to do away with elevators and take stairs and walk as much and as far as possible while at school, work shopping, etc. I have switched to diet pop. I am trying to get healthy mentally and physically and it is so hard because my life was a wreck.
I just hope I can graduate on time.
Sorry for the ramble. I welcome feedback.

Glad to hear you're taking care of you, Nellie - you deserve it!