OMG!!!!!!!! Okay, I had a date last night with a wonderful guy and had a wonderful time. STBX watched the kids at my house since he doesn't have a place yet (will soon!). It's been a long time since I've had some one treat me like a valuable person and it was nice. However, I got home around 11pm and STBX was asleep on the couch. The house was a wreck, but oh well, that's not the big thing. I had only told him that I was going out with friends, anything beyond that was none of his business. So, he left and I got on the computer to check my email. Well, my email was open, strange b/c I always log out when I leave the house. Usually I put the password on the whole computer when STBX is here b/c he has a bit of a porn problem. Okay, so my email was open and it was pretty obvious he'd been in there. So, I started looking around and checked the history. All my regular sites were there, but then I checked the time they were visited...all while I was gone. Yup, he read my online journal, and he checked every message board I post on!!!!!! Mr. I Don't Care What You Do was backtracking and checking up on me and I was furious!!! Even before he left I should've known something was up b/c after I said good-bye, he just paced around and then finally asked who I'd gone out with, said he was just curious..again I said I was with friends. But, I let it go, I may not even say anything to him, but next time he's here I'll clear the history and lock the computer. Oh, and he was looking at Tiffany engagement rings!!! Yeah, he's known this girl for all of 5 months (if that), so that should be a very entertaining train wreck! It bugged me at first, but I'm over it now. Something I learned from Al-Anon are the three C's: I can't control it, I can't change it, and I can't cure it; let go. It really works well in all aspects of life.
I may have to change my username, even though I hate to.