I did it!
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| Thu, 05-26-2005 - 8:44am |
Ladies, I just want to say that after your advice and my family's advise, etc. I finally grabbed my belongings while my abusive now-ex fiance was at work yesterday and moved in with a relative until I can move back home to my homestate. And just the feeling of power that I've gotten from that has been amazing! I have to admit that I'm feeling a HUGE FLOOD of emotions, including guilt, sadness, relief, and STRESS because I don't know what he might do next. He had never laid his hands on me before in 8 years, but Tuesday night was the final straw, he has now gone too far. He wouldn't even "let" me leave from our bedroom the other night, and tried to take my phone from me, he was pushing me around and telling me how I've done him soooooo wrong and he just wasted his time on me as if HE'D NEVER DONE ANYTHING to me! So, I'm disappointed because I feel like the entire engagement and our entire relationship was just another, repeat of what has happened before by him going in this pattern of abuse and wanting to make up, etc. It's just been a huge slap in the face.
So I feel some relief, some sadness, some frustration, some anger, a whole lot of hurt and I've been reading these books about abuse and the result of being with someone for years who is this way and it helps some. One day at a time right? :0)

Good for you!
Yes, take it one day at a time. And don't let him sweet talk you back. You can be very proud of yourself. :)
*applauds*