I finally told him about my trips
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|Fri, 03-28-2003 - 1:35pm|
When's my vacation?
So where are you going for Labor Day?
You don't care.
You're cold, indifferent & sometimes nasty.
Remember how you felt years ago when I had to go on business trips, and before we knew what was wrong? (referring to my depression). Well, that's how I feel.
He also told me that I'm not capable of being this cold or indifferent without the influence of someone or something else.
Were you expecting me to be excited for something I'm not a part of?... What did you expect my response to be? (so I told him... the exact response I got... to which he replied, oh, I'm glad a proved you right).
He also mentioned that I know how hard of time he's been having... with work, and now his grandfather will probably pass away in the next couple of weeks... oh yeah... and the hard time at home. He hasn't said anything about what he's been thinking or feeling (gee... I've heard this before)... now I'm waiting for it to happen.
When I didn't respond, he asked if I was going to say anything. I told him I didn't even know what to say.
He's waiting for the next bomb to drop (that I'm having an affair, or leaving... )
And... he finally said there's nothing wrong with going away for my class or on business...
I actually jotted down notes of what he said this time!!!! I'm glad I did. I was kind of shocked to hear him be so nasty, although I don't know why. I got the response I expected.
He called me back a little bit later in a better mood and was actually chatty. What's the deal?... is it because I didn't back down?