I have to go away ...but I am scared to

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Registered: 01-06-2005
I have to go away ...but I am scared to
Fri, 03-03-2006 - 9:32am

I really dont know what to do .....I am taking online classes ,and have to physically go to school next week ,for I will be gone three days ,to another state ....its a required thing ...I have had to do this many times bf when I was with my stbx ...and have always had trouble ...accusing me of affairs ....calling all the airports ,cops etc ...looking for me .

I know that if I tell him that I am going aways now ,,,,he will blow up and accuse me of all kind of things .....BUT the kids have to stay with him ,(will be with his parents and sister as well)while I am gone ,so I really have no choice as far as telling him .

I am really nervous about what his reation will be ....and if I should even go ....I almost feel like I dont have the RIGHT to go ....like I am doing something wrong,by leaving ....I guess thats just the way he has always made me feel ....

should I just go ahead and do what I have to do ,and just not worry about what he says ?

I have to stay in school,and this is required in order to do that ....I cant bring the kids ,and have no one else to watch them ....

Even though he tells me its not my fault... I cant help but feel it is in some way ,...he did tell me he needed me to do more, and that he wasnt feeling connected to me because of the distance ...But he really didnt give me a c