I really can't stop crying
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I really can't stop crying
| Tue, 11-02-2004 - 2:07am |
The tears are just never-ending. I feel so empty and lonely. Why is it so hard to leave someone who was so mean to you??????

{{{{HUGS}}}}
It is so very hard to be without someone you love, even if he was mean to you, even if he did make your life hell, even with all of the other cruelty you have endured, you loved him and that is part of the reason why you stayed, and that is part of the reason why you cry now. It is hard to start over. It is hard to be alone. It is hard to have everything so drastically changed so quickly once you do decide "this is it" after you have spent so much blood, sweat, and tears building your life around him. What do you do now?
Well, you do exactly what you are doing, you cry, and you post, and you cry some more. And then you get out and take a walk, get some fresh air into your lungs, stop at a park bench, or any bench and just breathe in the crispness of your surroundings, hear your heartbeat pulsing in your ears, birds flying over head, and feel the light on your face.
It is a long road. And sometimes it is a horrible bumpy, wretched road that deceives you into thinking that it would just be so much better if you made a big fat U-turn and went back the way you came... but you have a crowd cheering for you on the sidelines, Crypto, we see your struggle, we know how hard you are working to better your life, and we are all cheering for you SO loudly. The road will even out, sweety. Take care.
jen
Thank you
When someone shows you who they are, believe them.
- Maya Angelou
Allow yourself to cry.