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I'm Back with some good news I think!!
| Thu, 02-03-2005 - 9:11pm |
Hey Ladies I hope you are all well!! So the shifitz hit the fan recently and its on its way to being over. About four weeks ago my H decided to go out with the boys and rang me to tell me he would be home soon, I was sitting out the back of our house talking to our friend and tenant (male) he lives in a granny flat at the back of our house, something my H has done many many times in fact I didn't want this person to move in because I knew it would create problems because basically my whole relationship I have wanted to sleep with everyone(my H words)Sooo I thought I should go inside and then decided NO he is not going to control me I am not doing anything wrong, so we kept talking and finally my H came home. I tried to get him to come inside and go to bed as he was very drunk and wanted to keep drinking, bad move after a record 10 minutes he started on me how I was being disloyal blah blah blah and our friend finally got to see the other side of him as he was trying to hold him back from punching me and instead punched the sliding door. So I went to bed with him ranting in the house and turning the stereo on in the house, I kept trying to get him to go out the back and not wake our girls, he just got more and more aggressive so I went to bed then he came in and started turning on all the lights including out walkin robe!! I neally laughed it was so stupid 'this is my house and i will turn all the lights on if i want to' blah blah so I just stayed in bed he got more and more angry because i refused to talk to him. This all ended with him standing over me and yelling for about 5 mins that I was a 'stupid pig' over and over and the next thing my eldest daughter came in and yelled at him to shut up and leave me alone. He kind of snapped out of it at this point and went to hug our D and she was shaking with fear she is 11 then MOTHER BEAR kicked in and I pushed him away and went into the girls room to talk to them. After listening to my 5 yr old ask me why did daddy call you a stupid pig I knew it was time to go... So i did I got in the car and left he was crying at this point begging me not to take his kids! I stayed at my mums and he proceeded to walk to my friends down the road and cry on her shoulder.....I think she felt sorry for him actually but that's another story. Needless to say I have told him I want out we are finishing a few things on the house and it goes on the market in 8 weeks and then we are splitting up. He has been nice as pie since then with the occasional remark here and there. I loved it when he told my friend ' I am just worried that she will change her mind and I would have moved on and it will be too late!' ha like he thinks he is sooooo wonderful and I won't be able to find anyone else like him.....please get a grip!!
So all in all I feel great its hard to be in the same house even in the same room but I just keep telling myself that this is my chance to get out and I am grabbing it with both hands and hanging on for MY LIFE!! So today is a good day and I am going to enjoy it!! I also joined the gym this week somthing I have wanted to get back into for ages but didn't because someone would always question me and make fun of me etc etc I have to take it easy though the last thing I want to do is make my crohns worse!! Anyhoo have a good day girls and if you can just do one thing for yourself no matter how small we need to take care of ourselves no matter what!!
love
M
So all in all I feel great its hard to be in the same house even in the same room but I just keep telling myself that this is my chance to get out and I am grabbing it with both hands and hanging on for MY LIFE!! So today is a good day and I am going to enjoy it!! I also joined the gym this week somthing I have wanted to get back into for ages but didn't because someone would always question me and make fun of me etc etc I have to take it easy though the last thing I want to do is make my crohns worse!! Anyhoo have a good day girls and if you can just do one thing for yourself no matter how small we need to take care of ourselves no matter what!!
love
M

GOOD FOR YOU, GIRL!
Oh, man.
CL-Blueliner4