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| Sat, 04-10-2004 - 11:56am |
First of all he doesn't need to be here. If there were things here that he needed to work on for his job..fine..maybe I could understand. But realitically..he doesn't need to be here.
He's coming back again today..to go shoot gophers and asked my son if he wants to go with him. Again..not necessary for him being on the land shooting gophers.
Restraining order? Well had one...but a year ago we were getting along great...and it was just proving more difficult having it then it was to not have it. So "he" convinced me to drop it or he would make things more difficult for me. So I dropped it.
I told him I want my privacy on my weekends with the kids at home. He told me, "well its not like you guys have anything planned anyway because I asked DS".
I can't stan him being here. Its like I get a clostraphobic feeling when he is here. Yesterday I had a migraine all day and was very sick and last night I ended up with major pains in my stomach. He is in my territory..and he's trying to show me now how much he needs to be here..by constantly hanging around here now and doing things outside.
My gosh I just want it to end. It never will...he's always going to have that control over me. If its still this bad after almost 2 years...it will never change.
My gosh I can't stand him anymore..I'm becoming so angry now...that its playing on me physically and I feel sick all the time.
When we split up at first...it was depression..it was horrible...now its anger...stress...anxiety...and physically sick.
What am I supposed to do now??
Please I need your help or I'm going to end up in the hospital after snapping...or from being physically worn.
By the way..he doesn't come in my house..he stays away from that..but its still not nice having him hang around in the yard all day long.
If anyone things he is doing this because he enjoys being around me..that is incorrect..him and I have a very clear understanding that we will NEVER get back together. He is doing this to try and prove a point AND because he knows how much it bothers me.

Hi Brooke...I'm really confused here.
When someone shows you who they are, believe them.
- Maya Angelou
When someone shows you who they are, believe them.
- Maya Angelou
Even though this is land inherited to him..I also don't believe that I need nor should I walk away from here with the shirt on my back and leave my kids behind because I'll be homeless.
In our years of marriage..I stayed home and raised our children..did the books and dispatching from home for OUR business...from THIS home...when he was in jail for sexual assault or should I say "raping" a woman. *he was sentanced just after i found out i was pregnant with our son*.I ran his business...raised his son and looked after THIS home on HIS land.
So...Yes it was his land...but I do know that I do deserve $$'s in the amount of how much the land value has increased since we've been together.
When I was given the restraining order...it ordered him out of this house. He left...and now says he will give me to the end of june to get my stuff out.
THEN I am homeless as I said in my e-mail.
Everytime I have had a lawyer..he has threatened me OR conned me into dropping my lawyer.
I have an appt this friday with a new laywer and I will find out then what my options are. This is my children's home...my children have thrived in the last year ..and have accepted the idea of mom and dad not being together. My daughter had emotional problems at school and has thrived in the last 6 months. My son who went to 3 years of speech therapy when he was 3-6 years old (he is now nine) for stuttering...caught drift that we may be moving away from his home...his school...his friends...and he has now turned around after 3 years and began stuttering again. My daughter will lose all the self confidence ...self esteem she, the staff at her school, and myself have worked so hard on building..if we are thrown out of our home and have to move. Or if I lose custody of them because I cannot provide a home for them.
THAT is the scoop on him owning the land. I also had an inheritance that I put down on the home we are living in.
I don't agree with him doing that..this is what has me so upset...
Hi brooke…I don’t blame you for being upset that he’s hanging out around the yard on weekends, I wouldn’t like it either, and I’m really sorry that you’re going through this.
When someone shows you who they are, believe them.
- Maya Angelou