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| Wed, 02-16-2005 - 10:49pm |
I hope you are all doing well, I don't know if any of you will remember me or not, but I have had a lot of stuff going on and just have not had the time to post for ever. I just wanted to give you all a little update on us. It has been a little over a year now since I left my abusive situation, and while I would love to say it has been smooth sailing I can't. There were times when I thought I should go back, I can't get my son his pediasure, I can't pay this bill, I don't have enough money for food or gas etc. Well I somehow managed to stick it out and by the grace of God we always ended up with what we needed, this past x-mas I was given a car by the safe house I had stayed at when I first left as my second car in less than a year had given up on me, that was a total shocker and a very nice surprise all at the same time.
I am in my last year of school and then I will still have one term left after this spring, I applied for a DV scholarship and got it for Fall term, and then again for Winter term and if my GPA is good enough they said I will get it for Spring term also it is only a $1000.00 but it covers most of my childcare and that was the one thing I could not pay as my financial aid was cut, I was so happy as I did not think I would get it or make it this far. My son is doing wonderfully and could care less if he sees his dad or not anymore. We are in our own place close to campus and making it on our own. My bleeding ulcer is a thing of the past also.
The one thing I have not done yet but think I am getting ready to do is get the divorce as I have seen over this past year that I really don't think he going to change. I told him the only way I would even consider getting back together is he does individual counseling, I am in counseling and we do marriage counseling, whenever I tell him that he says we'll see, so that tells me that he is not going to change or doesn't want to and I really don't think I want to spend the rest of my life with someone who will rape you while you are sleeping jsut becasue you are his wife! My favorite thing he is saying now is that I was the one who emotionally abused him not the other way around, give me a break. I really don't think I would be this far if it was not for this board when I was first going through all of this and the very wise insight of a certian professor whom I will never forget. I just have to say that I am loving my freedom and never thought I would have this experience. I have been abusive free for "ONE YEAR, TWO WEEKS AND THREE DAYS' not that I am counting or anything like that and I am celebrating tonight. I took myself out for a banana split as I don't drink so that was all I could think of to do. Any ways I am hoping to be around a little more often now as I will be buying a computer for my home in the next few weeks. Sorry this got a little long but just had to share the good news with all of you and tell you all that there is life after abuse! Take care.
Angel

Welcome back Angel. I just realized that today is my 1 yr. It's been a ride hasn't it? Thank God for this board. Never would have made it. Going back is not for us. All of us that have made it out need to take one day at a time.
I feel like I was in prison for a crime I didn't commit, released, now in a halfway house (my apartment) and still trying to get a life. You take care and be safe,
Luv, Sherry