Just an update...

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Registered: 09-26-2005
Just an update...
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Wed, 10-05-2005 - 2:32pm

I wanted to thank everyone for the support. It means so much.

I just wanted to let everyone know that I recently moved into my own apartment, much closer to where I live. It's nice, being alone sometimes, but I only have three laundry baskets with clothes, a few things of food, a loveseat that's not even mine, and my three kitties for company. That's hard. Really.

I like the fact, though, that I am much closer to my job here now. It's nice not having to spend 55.00 twice a week to fill up my car for work gas alone. That's pretty cool, but living here on the east side of Nashville totally different from living in the north for 16 or so years.

I get kinda lonely sometimes, but I guess that's part of it right?

I recently found out that my "whatever" he is quit his job last night for whatever reason. (A friend told me.) I feel really bad because now he can't pay rent and all that jazz. I remember when I was out of work for awhile, he would often tell me that he wanted to leave me, and I think about how I felt when he said that. There are so many emotions going through me, I kinda feel bad for putting him in this kinda money situation, but that is what has been holding me back for so long. That part really makes me feel bad, I still care about him, I just don't feel like I am in love with him anymore, especially since I have been beaten on so many times.

Are there any tips for what I am feeling? This is normal to have these thoughts, right? I'm not having SECOND thoughts, just feeling kinda low. What's the best way to get over that?

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Registered: 02-08-2005
Wed, 10-05-2005 - 6:02pm

Hello Neighbor!

5yrssm 
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Registered: 08-12-2004
Wed, 10-05-2005 - 10:45pm

((HUGS))


Fill up your time, go to the website and read The Awakening and The First 100 Days, get a good circle of friends, and let yourself heal. NO CONTACT.

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Registered: 09-29-2005
Thu, 10-06-2005 - 7:40am

Hey, dev, glad to hear from you.

 

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Registered: 11-08-2004
Sun, 10-30-2005 - 10:54am

Iawakened,

I wonder if you could tell us a little of your journey? It would sure be motivating to hear how you are making it through this. Thanks much, sign me a mom of five trying to make good choices and find some answers, Peace, Annah