Just an update from yesterday

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Registered: 04-11-2003
Just an update from yesterday
Tue, 09-21-2004 - 11:46am
So when I got home I was excpecting the worst of course I told him i had no idea who signed something for her and he said I needed to find out who. Yeah right I know a lot of people it could be almost anyone. He didn't freak out to bad but later on in the evening we had a "talk". Basically he told me that everything bad that has happened in his life ever since he moved in with me was all my fault. I yelled back that I was NOT responsible for what happened in court yesterday. The judge wouldn't even accept the avadava (spelling) because it had nothing to do with the case. In a way I am kind of relieved but I think I was actually almost hopeing that the judge would have because then it would have been easier Maybe to have to leave. I know i have said that a million times before I talk about leaving but then things go good and I think "Ohhe was just haveing a bad day" or whatever I make excuses for him all the time. I am done makeing excuses I honestly can't say right now that I am going to leave him right now. I know my day will come. I read here just about everyday and when I hear others stories about how life is great after they leave there abuser I thin that could and will be me someday. Maybe some people are sick of me whining about him I dunno and if anyone is I apologize. This borad has helped me a lot actually. I have realized he will not own up to his part EVER he is denial that he is an abusive verbally and physically SOB. I have started school a lot of people tell me that this will bosst my confidence. I sure hope so. I feel like sometimes I am hanging onto a straw. SO again thanks for everyones terrific help here and I hope Iam not makeing anyone mad here.