Just want to let it out

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Registered: 11-12-2004
Just want to let it out
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Wed, 02-23-2005 - 12:48pm
I posted just recently the events of my first divorce court. I don't know what is wrong with me but for some reason that court really just got the better of me. I have been crying all day, even at work. Why is this affecting me so much? Maybe it is the idea that he shows no remorse, or the realization that he doesn't love me, probably never did, and only sees me as his pot of gold? I keep wishing he would disappear off the face of the earth. I also am so tired of this, I guess I wanted to have some indication what direction this is going and after yesterday I feel like I am still at the beginning of all of this. I feel like I am against the wall for execution and just waiting and hoping the judge will give me a reprieve before the shots are fired. I hate him so much. Why do I feel like I have to prove I am not the liar he kept telling everyone I was. Why do I feel like nobody believes me, even though nobody actually said they don't believe me? If the court wasn't so bad, why do I feel so miserable?
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Registered: 11-12-2003
Wed, 02-23-2005 - 1:05pm

I'm not going to kid you, Lucky.

CL-Blueliner4