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Registered: 02-10-2006
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Fri, 02-10-2006 - 12:58am
I've never been on a message board before. I find myself here looking for support from others who will understand. I have just gotten out of an abusive relationship that I have been in for almost six years now. I have no idea how I feel. One moment I am angry. I am angry at him and angry at myself for allowing this to happen. Then I'm sad and I feel so alone. I'm afarid that he will come back and hurt me or even worse. He's always told me he will kill me.
Whats really crazy is part of me misses him. I look at our son and hate myself because of the father I choosed for him Iwant to be strong but its so hard!
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Registered: 11-12-2003
In reply to: keithade
Fri, 02-10-2006 - 2:43pm

Hi honey, welcome -


Trust me, right now what you're feeling is 100% normal for the situation.

CL-Blueliner4

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Registered: 09-29-2005
In reply to: keithade
Fri, 02-10-2006 - 5:33pm

Blue's right on the money, Keithade.

 

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-10-2006
In reply to: keithade
Sat, 02-11-2006 - 2:33am
Thank you to you and blues post. Being here I don't feel as alone. I know I have alot of work to do. I left my ex last year when he went to jail for 4 months because of battery agaisnt me. I didn't stay in contact with him at all. He wrote me butI wouldn't respond. Then a few months later there I was with him again falling for the same old "I've changed" story. So here I am again I have to start from the begining on the healing.
As far as getting a RO. The system here is not very good here. Since I wasnt living with him I could not get a restraining order through the district attorneys office. I have to do it on my own so it's a little bit harder.
Anyways I want to thank you for all the support.
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Registered: 10-05-2004
In reply to: keithade
Sun, 02-12-2006 - 12:00pm
What Blue said, and hugs.
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