Life is good
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| Thu, 08-17-2006 - 1:11pm |
Hi all! Guess what..........I've got 6 days clean :-)!! Woo Hoo! OMG has my attitude changed. Life is good.
As for b/f and I things are going well. Still trying to control everything in my life but ultimately I am doing what I want to do not necessarily what she tells me to do. I am working on finding my independence and my voice with her. She does not agree with me going to NA, thinks that I should just be able to quit on my own. WRONG! I have gone every day for the past 6 days and I have found a sponser. I haven't told her that but you know what? It is none of her business. She doesn't want me talking to anybody from NA but you know what? It is none of her business. She tries to control who I talk to but you know what? It is none of her business? See a pattern here LOL?
My sponser offered to rent me a room if I ever feel that I am ready to move on. OMG does that ever take a load off of my mind! Before I had nowhere else to go but now I do. I'm not saying that I am moving but if things get bad again I can. Just the option is a great relief.
B/f's bf has totally changed his attitude since he was kicked out for threatening me and poking me in the face and now we are getting along wonderfully. He's still moody but he's a male LOL.
It feels great to be able to post something positive cause I always feel like I am posting about the negative things in my life. I am now seeing more and more that there are good things as well. I'm applying for a job after 5 years of not working. I'm so looking forward to a new career. I now realize that I am not quite ready to get my children back. I need some clean time under my belt and I would like to find a job first and get settled back into a normal life.
My sponser is a paralegal and has done some family law so I am sure that when I do get ready to fight for custody that she will help me. Positive things are happening in my life. I decided to get clean and new doors are opening up for me.
I fully realize that I will have ups and downs, especially with b/f but at least for now I am not thinking very far into the future. If she hits me again I am outta here! If her bf hits or threatens me again, it's either him or me. I'm feeling strong right now, can you tell LOL.
Life is great if you just take time to look for the positive.
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