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Light in the tunnel
| Wed, 05-31-2006 - 3:49am |
After the emotional roller coaster of the weekend, I am able to see things very well today. I now see that momemnt that he threw my Dad to the ground was the exact moment I knew no matter how much I loved him and wanted to be with him, it was over.
He has problems he has never dealt with before and I cant hold his hand any longer. It is going to hurt for awhile. My future, my dreams, my aspirations for my life all included him and when he left those dreams died.
I know now that I am sad for the loss of that life, even though it wasnt realized yet, but I still grieve for the promise of it.
I am seeing a councellor tomorrow at the womens shelter in town to talk a few things over. I am conflicted, that I still love this man who did such ill to my family, but I want him to be back in Cali to sort his life out. The charges of assault will stand, but I want to see him go home to the palce he feels secure. He wont be able to cross the border back into Canada with these charges on his record and if i know my husband, even a little bit still, I know the regret he will feel will haunt him for a long time, and that will be punishement enough for me. I am going to try and speak to the Crown before his hearing on Tuesday and see if they will try a plea bargain for him to that effect. It will be hard to see him if i go for the hearing, but i feel he deserves to hear that its over from my lips, not a lawyers. I will not waver in my decision to divorce, he wasnt happy with me and I need to move on.
He has problems he has never dealt with before and I cant hold his hand any longer. It is going to hurt for awhile. My future, my dreams, my aspirations for my life all included him and when he left those dreams died.
I know now that I am sad for the loss of that life, even though it wasnt realized yet, but I still grieve for the promise of it.
I am seeing a councellor tomorrow at the womens shelter in town to talk a few things over. I am conflicted, that I still love this man who did such ill to my family, but I want him to be back in Cali to sort his life out. The charges of assault will stand, but I want to see him go home to the palce he feels secure. He wont be able to cross the border back into Canada with these charges on his record and if i know my husband, even a little bit still, I know the regret he will feel will haunt him for a long time, and that will be punishement enough for me. I am going to try and speak to the Crown before his hearing on Tuesday and see if they will try a plea bargain for him to that effect. It will be hard to see him if i go for the hearing, but i feel he deserves to hear that its over from my lips, not a lawyers. I will not waver in my decision to divorce, he wasnt happy with me and I need to move on.
Signatures On
| Thu, 06-01-2006 - 11:40am |
I think seeing a counselor is a GREAT decision. Stay strong, you CAN do it!



