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|Tue, 06-14-2011 - 8:28pm|
So this friday was supposed to be my lease date..I am not sure what to do..I don't want to cancel..but at the same time..I am scared of taking the step. The main fear actually is just the backlash from dd..and whether I will make it tougher for her to go back/forth and just managing that part. I am not scared of finances (yes they will be tight) but as long as I have a job, it is ok..I am mostly scared of taking the step as I feel it will impact dd and I will be cooking a storm..One alternate my counselor suggested was to hold on for 3 years..if i am just not able to do it. But then i am scared that i let go of the house and in 2 weeks, he will have a big blow up..things with him are usual..no big blowups at me..(guess my bar is lowered)..there was one instance of him yelling at dd..again..I know he is not changing..it is just should I/could I let things be..
One thing I do know is - if I get out, I am not going to throw divorce papers at him right away as it is just too much to take..I really am not sure...if I am not ready for that..why even do it..again mostly scared at "disrupting" dd's life..