losing my mind and need some help

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Registered: 03-26-2003
losing my mind and need some help
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Sat, 07-17-2004 - 6:28pm
Hi been a long time since I have been to this board.. but looks like i am back again.. dh and I have been fighting big time and I left thursday night to come stay at my moms because our car broke down but my brother was going to fix it for me here at my moms and i live 1 1/2 hours away from my family.. well he got mad and told me to get my fat ass home or he was leaving me...

Well I didnt go home until last nite and then we had a big fight he was drunk and tore the house up and threatened to hit me... he hit me saturday and it scared me when he started tearing stuff up so i called my mom from my cell phone because i locked myself in the bedroom and he broke the door down to get in there and she called the police. Since he didnt physically hit me they just made him leave.. well then he called and asked me to talk to him which I did because I do love him so much.. we have only been married 7 months!

So I came back to my moms last nite it was about 2am and then I am staying here again tonite because the car still isnt done... talked to him this morning and he told me he loved me and he is going fishing and for me to call him later.. well now it is 9 hours later and he still isnt home and I am having a panic attack worrying and not able to get a hold of him.. i feel like I am losing my mind.. we both agreed we love each other and want to be together but things have to change for us to do that.. he says it is my fault if i would just keep my mouth shut.. i say it is his drinking because we never fight when he is sober.. but he is seldom sober anymore lately.... he drinks from when he wakes up till he passes out at night..

just need some advice... hope someone can help before i lose my mind.. my parents want me to move in with them because they are afraid he is really going to hurt me.. and i just want my life back.. i want my husband i married..

sorry this is so long i just dont know what to do anymore

thanks

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-26-2003
Sun, 07-18-2004 - 1:52pm
Hi smilinmore...welcome to the board.

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