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| Mon, 04-12-2004 - 1:15pm |
It will be 22 years of riding a roller coaster marriage never knowing if its going to be feast or famine
I have always said when my boys leave home so would i there would be nothing to hold me back
4 years ago he up and bought a farm in rural Saskatchewan and basicly dumped me and the kids in the place and expected us to be "farmers"
He trucks so he is gone alot my family says they never worry about me when he is gone just when he is home ( he doesn t hit he is just stupid and puts me in some dangerous situations with the cattle
Last year one of my best friends lost her battle with depression and shot herself which sadden and angred me and sent me on a downward sprial
A week later while giving bulls needles the metal pannel in the chute came down on my head and knocked my lights out and well why would i do something so stupid duhhhhhhhh
son has to drive me to the hospital and he gets plastered
I won t go into the realationship with his son s they are old enough to tell him what they think of him and his drinking
He was away working for two months comes home does a shift in the bar and leaves me to tend to a cow and calf in the barn where i fall from the hayloft break my ankle in two places and have to drag myself to the house He was totally useless thankgod my son Randy was home and the ambulance was called in and i was taken to the city
You think he called NO i had to call home collect for someone to come and get me he sent my son Randy i had no coat no shoes no pants or undies the kid had to bring them
It get worse my horse gets really sick and he couldn t care a less now he has liver damage but he says there is nothing wrong with him
No help around the house i have fallen a few times and he barely reacts i guess i have inconvienced him
With the BSE (mad cow ) crisis it is extremely tuff around here but he hasn t stopped spending away the overdraft
Now i am putting in time the cast comes off April 27th and i am out here oh forgot to mention he drinks beer at 10 am and ran into my car and thought it was funny
I have a safe place to go it will just have to wait until he isn t around i want to take the car but if worst comes to worst i know my Mom will get me a plane ticket out of here
he has always said half of nothing is nothing guess he is about to find out if that is
true or not ....................thanks for your eyes and ears nancy
I have always said when my boys leave home so would i there would be nothing to hold me back
4 years ago he up and bought a farm in rural Saskatchewan and basicly dumped me and the kids in the place and expected us to be "farmers"
He trucks so he is gone alot my family says they never worry about me when he is gone just when he is home ( he doesn t hit he is just stupid and puts me in some dangerous situations with the cattle
Last year one of my best friends lost her battle with depression and shot herself which sadden and angred me and sent me on a downward sprial
A week later while giving bulls needles the metal pannel in the chute came down on my head and knocked my lights out and well why would i do something so stupid duhhhhhhhh
son has to drive me to the hospital and he gets plastered
I won t go into the realationship with his son s they are old enough to tell him what they think of him and his drinking
He was away working for two months comes home does a shift in the bar and leaves me to tend to a cow and calf in the barn where i fall from the hayloft break my ankle in two places and have to drag myself to the house He was totally useless thankgod my son Randy was home and the ambulance was called in and i was taken to the city
You think he called NO i had to call home collect for someone to come and get me he sent my son Randy i had no coat no shoes no pants or undies the kid had to bring them
It get worse my horse gets really sick and he couldn t care a less now he has liver damage but he says there is nothing wrong with him
No help around the house i have fallen a few times and he barely reacts i guess i have inconvienced him
With the BSE (mad cow ) crisis it is extremely tuff around here but he hasn t stopped spending away the overdraft
Now i am putting in time the cast comes off April 27th and i am out here oh forgot to mention he drinks beer at 10 am and ran into my car and thought it was funny
I have a safe place to go it will just have to wait until he isn t around i want to take the car but if worst comes to worst i know my Mom will get me a plane ticket out of here
he has always said half of nothing is nothing guess he is about to find out if that is
true or not ....................thanks for your eyes and ears nancy

I have been there 27 years; filed for divorce last month. My STBX has always put me in dangerous situations, too; and if they didn't turn out just right, I'd get cussed for hours.
I have been depressed (less than living with him), lonesome (no more than living with him), sad (?), angry (because I put up with his crap for so long), but I know my future has to be better. I've been miserable for 27 years.
Best of luck,
Hugs,
Jackie