My time is right around the corner!
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| Wed, 03-09-2005 - 9:12pm |
Hey everyone,
Just wanted to post, my landlords phoned my sister and left a msg for me saying my apartment is ready! So Im gonna begin moving little things in, the car is already packed with a few things. H ended up having to still work the 14th so I can still move in than, but it may be sooner if he leaves this weekened or later this week on his "guys" trip.I feel that any chance I can get to move, Im gonna take it! Was just gonna wait till he went to work on the 14th, but why!?, why when I can start my fresh life earlier, right? So whenever hubby talks to his bud I will find out when its go time! oh, its feels like Im waiting for xmas. Im abit anxious about it all though, cause the time has finally come and it feels like I waited so long for it, and its here now! Im feeling a touch of aniexty too, when the time comes to actually begin the moving process. Moving alone is stressful, nevermind trying to escape H and be quiet about it. But at the same time I feel like im getting out of my cacoon, like Im coming out of the dark and into the real world. The door is slowly cracking open, and I love the thought of having my own space! The worst is alomst over, thank god. Please pray for me everyone! pray that H goes away on his trip this weekened!!!

IV:
I remember the day I moved out. XH was going to be at work. I knew this ahead of time. I got a friend to help me move what little bit of stuff I took. We packed it in XH's truck and moved it, but I felt like a thief in the night. Yet it was my stuff!!!! I had a terrible sick feeling leading up to that day. It was like getting on a roller coaster and going up the hill, knowing it's going to drop. But when the ride is done you think "wow, I survived". And I did!!!! When I got back into my apartment, it was like relief. I was so happy; I felt FREE. He knew I was moving out that day. The night before he said he'd help me gather up some stuff. Yeah, he helped me. He threw my plant stand across the kitchen floor and called me everything imaginable.
I moved out on my dad's birthday.....somewhat ironic because I was so, so close with my dad. Sometimes I think I have emotional issues because I loved my dad so much and remember how he gave me unconditional love. Only to be married to some b*stard. My dad would be so happy for me right now.
Anyway, I just wanted to tell you about those feelings I had. I wish you luck. I'll pray for you. Keep us posted.
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