Hi, I am very nervous about court on Thursday. I do not want to see him. I am just sort of starting to feel a little bit better and I know when I see him I am going to start feelinglike crap again. He is probably going to bring his new girlfriend and I bet he is going to be mean an nasty again trying to find away to hurt me. I have not talked to him or called him and that is a big acomplishment for me because every other time we have broken up I always ended up calling him wanting him back. It sort of bothers me though that he has moved on and does not care about his son right know at all. I donot want to fall back into the cycle and I know if I see him all of these feelings are going to resurface. Why do I care so much about someone who has hurt me financially and pyshically all these years. I know he is going to be a cocky jerk to me on Thursday. I had taken care of him for 7 years. I provided a roof over his head, a car to drive, a cell phone, and what every else he wanted because I wanted to make him happy. I finally came to grips that he can never be satisified or happy he is just a miserable person. I noticed this morning how peaceful the house is no yelling or fighting. My son can finally have a place were he can feel safe without having the tension in the air. I still care and love him though even after all that he has done to me but I have to stay strong if not for my self but for my child. I do not want my precious son to turnout like his father always anger at the world.
The ex had a blowout with one of his good friend a while back. Yelling and screaming at him. Most of his friends do not really talk to him anymore. I found out the other day he went there to apologize to him for the way he has acted in the past. Why has he not apologized to me or my son? We were there for him a lot longer then anyone else that has ever been in his life. I guess we were not worth it. I have so many mixed emotions right know that I am tring to sort out.
I was debating on getting a lawyer for Thurs. and wheter to have this restraining order permenant. Right know he is so involved with this other women living in her parents house, driving her car and using her cell phone. Because he has moved on do you think he will try to come back or try to bother me again? I am just so confused and need some advise.
I know it will be hard, but it is for the best. I have gone back to Sean too many times. I've talked to him twice since the RO, once I did go see him which was stupid but it did help with closure and once he called and was calling me names and saying I harassed him which I didn't do. I was confused, but I called the police and so far I've heard nothing, but he also hasn't called again and my number will be changed by the beginning of next week. I don't have any desire for contact and each time I have talked to him, it has made me realize more why I don't want him around. He was nasty that one time. The other time he was sweet as could be, but both times he stayed focused only on his needs and not on how I was hurt by all of this, so...keep that in mind when those feelings pop up. Best of luck to you.
Jen
Jen
I would take a lawyer and I would get the RO permanent.
CL-Blueliner4