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| Mon, 08-07-2006 - 11:09pm |
Hi all, I havn't been around much lately. I have some good news this time though. After almost a year and a half after my first attempt(and failure) at freedom, I have finally mustered up the courage to try again.I got another Emergency protective order today,and will need to go Friday and speak to the judge about having it extended for a year.I also filed for custody and support while I was there.
I really think I am going to make it this time around.I no longer feel that extreme guilt that I felt the first time. That guilt is what holds alot of us back. Although it was a crippling emotion for me, sometimes I thank God for the ability to feel it.If I couldn't I would be no better a person than my abuser.
Please keep your fingers crossed and say a prayer for me that the P.O is extended. I feel it's crucial for my success in starting a new life, as some of you may remember my H is an emotional abuser. He's very good at playing mind games and laying on guilt trips. He's manipulated me so well in the past.If I get the order, I won't be susseptible to any of that.
Thanks for letting me share! Thoughts and prayers to you all,
Nikki

Hello! I'm proud of you. As someone who has survived an abusive marraige, I've been there. I left nine years ago, and I have never looked back. I'm grateful to have left that situation.
Here's a website that you might find helpful: www.mysistersplacedc.org.
Please let us know how you're doing!
Best Regards,
Blessed Girl
Hello!
How are thing going for you?
Best Regards,
BlessedGirl
Nikki,
I've been meaning to respond to your post since I read it but haven't had time to be on the board much lately. I just wanted to send {{{HUGS}}} and support your way. I don't know what has happened in your situation since this post but I hope it has gone well. I'm so glad to hear that you've found the strength to get out of your abusive relationship. Just know that I'm thinking of you and praying for you and hoping that one day I can find the strength to do the same.
Keep us updated on your progress.
Lisa
Nikki,
Good luck to you. Getting out is definitely scary but the life on the other side is so much better than living with abuse. I got out physically in November and completely in March. For me it also took an order of protection so I will be thinking of you and praying that the judge gives you the extension you need to rebuild your life. For me, the order of protection was what it took to finally be able to see what life could be like without my abusive ex.
I am glad to hear that you feel free of the guilt. I know how that can hold you back. It took me several attempts before I finally won my freedom and I always thought that I'd feel guilty and responsible for him. It took time and help but I know I will never go back and he will never control my life again.
I will be thinking of you and hoping that he has no chance to speak to you, to make you feel badly, to manipulate or hurt you ever again.
Kristina