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| Thu, 07-22-2004 - 2:37pm |
yesterday morning my husband of less then a year told me that him and his buddies were going to hooters for lunch, i was not made or upset that he was going to hooters but more hurt that he has never asked me to come along. anyways, i kind of threw a fit and then when he got home that night, was all crying and he wanted to talk, asked me what was wrong, i wouldnt talk, just laid there and cried. so then we decided to go out to dinner, as we were driving there, i just blew up at him about how his friends are no good and how i dont care if he goes to hooters but i'd just like to know his friend personally and not by stories, everything comes out. a few months before this he called some girl and the charges showed up on my phone bill, so i was still upset from that, but had let it go at the time because as we were fighting, he slapped me and i just let it go. well, those feelings of hurt never went away. i again started crying in the car, decided i was not hungry and he just rolled his eyes and kind of darted out of the parking lot. we said not a word to each other the rest of the night. he then came to bed after studing for awhile, and i wanted to talk, he refused saying that earlier he wanted to talk, and i wouldnt so he told me to shut up and go to bed. now i prob did a little bit of instigation, i wouldnt be quiet, i kept hounding him about how i want to talk. so he moved into my son's bed (my older son is at his dads for the week). I followed him, mostly to appologize but then of course i started again. nagging, then i started asking about the other girl he called, asking who gave who their number and stuff like that..... i dont know really what happened but he just lost it, grabbed my hair pulled me down and just started slapping me, prob 10 to 15 times in all. my lip was bleeding a bit, but other then that i have no marks now, my eye hurts, but there is no bruise. i am in shock, i have NEVER been hit before, my parents never even spanked me, everytime he hit me, i just saw a flash of light, it was so weird, so scarey, i dont even remember if i was screaming or not, then he kicked me and i ran out of the room, this morning he came into the bed to give our 4 month old son a kiss and left.
he said that if he fails his test today because i would not let him sleep he would come home and beat the &%&* out of me, i dont think he will, but part of me is somewhat scared. i have no where to go, we just moved here, in 30 days he is getting deployed, i do not know a soul and i dont want to tell my family.
i am sorry for rambling but i dont know what else to do.

Hi again:
I will apologize up front if I seem to skirt around the issue of the military and I am going to try and keep that part of out of this only because I am too close to some things in my real life to give an objective view regarding it.
CL-Blueliner4
Welcome to the board, hds04.
Peace and hugs,
Cheryl =)
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