Pain...always in pain
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|Tue, 01-24-2012 - 11:57am|
I've been here before, long ago and am back..it's been so long I don't remember my username, so I had to create a new one.
For 8 years I've been in a violent relationship..the physical was less and less, but the emotional, verbal, etc has exploded over the years. I don't know where to start, so I'm going to lay a little background. I don't know where else to go. I called DV hotline and was told after 15 min that there were other calls to answer and she had to go. I'm not in immediate danger. I don't think I'm in any or will be..I feel foolish actually, because it has been quiet for over a week and I think he is done w/ me for real and I'm like mourning him. So so so stupid. I also want to say that I did start tt a therapist, but she is way out of the way and then he came back in my life and she fell off my radar. I don't have the co pay money right now, so I will try these boards as an outlet.
We have a 2 year old. He was in jail when she was born, came out when she was 4 mos, lived w/ me and I kicked him out a few months later. Around this time last year he got involved w/ some new life...presumably drugs..he has no job, but he had lots of money, brand new Harley, new tattoo every day...he would answer to nothing, but was still coming around here and there..and I let him. I started getting angry because he gave me no money..he had TONS..he would take us to $150 dinners, bought our baby real diamonds..but would never give me