Please dont be TOO harsh ....

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Registered: 01-06-2005
Please dont be TOO harsh ....
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Thu, 04-06-2006 - 9:21am

I didnt want to write this ...told myself I wouldnt ...I feel like such an idiot ...but I have to talk to someone about it ...
I went out to dinner with him Friday night ....I was bored ...things were going ok between us ...so I said what the heck ....we had a great time ...abd then afterwards we went to a friends house ..had a few drinks ...laughed.. talked ...he ended up spending the night ...Saturday ..same thing ...we had a great day ...took the kids out to the park ...we went out together saturday night ...we really enjoyed eachother.Thats is what I ahve missed ,the good times we had together ....

SO>>>>> I let him come back home .Hes on my "probation"...of course ,he promises that things have changed ..blah blah blah...

he says that he wants me to stop posting here ..bc you all have me brainwashed (LOL) and that as long as things are over with the other man ,then there will neer be any more abuse ,at all.
and I will say that bf him ,there was not much that you could really call abuse...just obsessive possessivness,he got drunk and hit the wall a few times ..(which he always had me believing it was bc he loved me so much )
and that when he found out I had been seeing someone else ..the jealousy took him over nad he became abusive ...he still tells me that "its not your fault that I was abusive ,BUT if you hadnt cheated it wouldnt have happened " he tells me "all the times that Igrilled you about seeing someone else etc..YOU WERE !!! So I was right !!!"

So I dont really know what else to say ...I am trying to love him ...I am hoping he will change ...but I dont know how well I can fight accusations that arent true ...

Even though he tells me its not my fault... I cant help but feel it is in some way ,...he did tell me he needed me to do more, and that he wasnt feeling connected to me because of the distance ...But he really didnt give me a c

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iVillage Member
Registered: 01-06-2005
Fri, 04-07-2006 - 6:52am

no it doesnt sound like he wants to change at all....last night we were arguing ,and I said" I am not saying anything else ,you cant rationalize with an irrational person "He got SO mad ,no bc of what I said about him ,but he said "stop talking that way ,using those big words ,you are not from new york city,and your not a doctor ,you dont have to talk like you are ,,some things you say ,I dont even know what the words mean !!!"

NOW he is trying to control my VOCABULARY???? I cant help it that I am an educated person ,and he needs a dictionary to understand my speech LOL

Even though he tells me its not my fault... I cant help but feel it is in some way ,...he did tell me he needed me to do more, and that he wasnt feeling connected to me because of the distance ...But he really didnt give me a c

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Registered: 09-29-2005
Fri, 04-07-2006 - 8:37pm

IRRATIONAL is a big word?!?!?!?!

 

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