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| Mon, 03-14-2005 - 7:48pm |
Hi,
I posted awhile back about my ex-bf being a real anus. Well, he's at it again. He is paying my rent until the lease is up in April. He called today and said I should "probably" renew the lease for 6 more months. He "might" be coming back. I feel so stuck and have been crying A LOT. I cannot currently work, I have epilepsy and have been having 7 or 8 seizures a month. My neurologist feels the increase may be from stress (what a surprise). My mom wants me to move in with her, an hour from here, when my lease is up. She said she could really use the help. Her and her husband work over time all the time and she needs help cleaning the house and with laundry, taking care of her dog, etc.. She said I could even bring my cats with (If you knew my mom THAT is a big deal). My son is in college and doesn't want to move yet ): He and my ex get along fine and he wants to stay here ): My son is planning on moving in August. He will be out of college and he is getting a job and moving in with friends about 2 hours from here, so he doesn't want to move, then move again.... I am so super stressed. I love this area and don't want to move, but my ex... well I still care about him, but I just don't know. Distance is a BIG deal to me since I am not supposed to be driving. The only places I drive are within a mile.... Sorry I'm rambling. I don't even think my ex realizes what a jerk he is being half the time... and if he does, then he is the biggest jerk I know!!!!! He's always saying "I'll be over at such-and-such time" or "I'll call" and all he does is blow me off. He even tells me about all the fun he has!!!!!!!! Then whines to me about all his issues! What about my issues?? When we did live together last, he walked at me with a knife in his hand, then when he got to me he put it on his wrist. He looked crazy. That was right before he moved out ): We were together over a decade and he has changed.
I'm so sorry, I just needed to vent, I didn't mean to go mental and make no sense.

I needed to hear everything you said. That is what I have been thinking and I want to do what is right, the trick is doing it. I need to get the motivation, the will to do it. I have an appointment with a counselor tomorrow and I think I'll bring it up.
Oh and sorry I didn't mention the seizures are not convulsive they are what is known as partial seizures... which still are tiring, but not as serious.
Thanks