sad again

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Registered: 02-24-2004
sad again
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Tue, 04-06-2004 - 5:30pm
Hi Everyone-

How is everyone dealing with the time change? I am so happy it makes the work day go by so much faster. So about how I am feeling. Well I did something STUPID, you all are probably going to be mad at me. Well my son wanted to talk to my ex, I let him call him last night. Well I noticed he put my son on hold for like 5 mins. I grabbed the phone and he answered and I said why did you keep him on hold for so long. He sucked his teeth and hung up on me. A few weeks ago I experienced something nice at prayer that I wanted to share with him I went to his house and felt so stupid talking to him through his window because he wouldn't even open the blinds. I said I just need to talk to you and share something with you. He said, I don't want to talk to you! In a mean voice. What do you want. I said oh come on now I can't talk to you like this and I started to cry and ran away. Meanwhile this is where I used to live.. Where we shared everything. Do you think that he will change because he said he has found God... I am so skeptical because I could see that he still has a lot of anger inside and I am not sure. Do you think he has a girlfriend because he thinks he is cured from HIV. I mean do you think after a month of us being separated that would be too fast to be with someone else, especially because of the disease and the phyiscal abuse I endured. Please reply my mind is wander.

Love,

Bella

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Registered: 11-12-2003
In reply to: ibellasara
Tue, 04-06-2004 - 6:05pm

Yes, I do think 1 month is far too quickly to move on to someone new...if you are normal.

CL-Blueliner4

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Registered: 02-24-2004
In reply to: ibellasara
Tue, 04-06-2004 - 6:18pm
I wanted to say thanks, I don't know what I would do if I didn't speak to you.. It makes so much sense. He is punishing me. That is so his demeanor. Wow you hit it right on the nail. He is punishing me because he knows it hurts. From this day forward I am not going to contact him, I am going to tell my son that Daddy is busy working. He doesn't ask for him all the time because he is with me. I guess it is just those boy moments when he wants his Daddy. He wishes so much that him and I got back together, but even my son says his Dad had a bad temper and he remembers him being mean. What do you think about the Christianity thing and that he has changed and will only be devoted to God. I mean I pray that happens but do you think that is his way of trying to make me feel guilty. Do you think it is true. W/B

Love

Belle

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Registered: 11-12-2003
In reply to: ibellasara
Tue, 04-06-2004 - 7:01pm

"Finding God" is a hugely common tactic and you are very wise to be skeptical of it.

CL-Blueliner4