Seriously depressed ...need to vent

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Registered: 01-06-2005
Seriously depressed ...need to vent
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Fri, 02-24-2006 - 10:38am

first I want to say ,sorry for whining ,but I really need to get my thoughts out of my head ,so to speak.

I feel as if my head is spinning ....I just found out that my H hasnt been to work but a few times in the past couple of weeks ,(bc he was too upset to work)PLEASE....anyway...he told his employer that our son had CANCER ,and had to go to Wisconsin to have a bone marrow transplant ,in order to keep from losing his job due to not going to work ....That disgusts me ....

anyway ...so with him not getting a paycheck ,I am left with my bills ,his bills,and three small kids to take care of ....I cant even pay my car note ....I am to depressed to even think about getting a job...one thing is daycare .....with three kids ,it would cost me about 600 a month ....which is about three fourths of what I would be bringing home ,if I got a job....

I feel like there is NO point in that ...I AM a full time student ....I take online classes BUT have 2 years left ....I feel like I am making the right decision to stay in school ,and focus on that ....BUT still in the meantime I STILL have three kids ,rent ...car ...utilities....etc....

He always had a problem with me working ,(BC of other men )and it caused so many problems that I just gave in and didnt work,even though I wanted to .and now I am paying for it dearly.

i am just sick.....

Even though he tells me its not my fault... I cant help but feel it is in some way ,...he did tell me he needed me to do more, and that he wasnt feeling connected to me because of the distance ...But he really didnt give me a c

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Registered: 03-25-2002
Fri, 02-24-2006 - 5:30pm

Hope you are feeling better... My two cents is look into financial aide...try Social Services. Personally, I have a job, but still the bills are more than my income and I cannot count on child support all the time either. I looked into financial help from anywhere I could find it.... I found child care help from a city program. I found utility bill help from churches in the area. You can search online if your city has a website or call Social Services out of the phone book. There is also WIC, Food Stamps, Emergency money... there is lots of help out there. And lots of caring people. If you are in school, you might also look into student loans.

Hope you get the support you need. Take care. And keep posting here. You are not alone.

Love,
Loonybunny

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Registered: 10-05-2004
Sat, 02-25-2006 - 11:39am
I agree to check out social services- churches are a good place to start. There are all kinds of programs available for moms in school- you don't have to take this.
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Registered: 09-29-2005
Sat, 02-25-2006 - 6:15pm

Defintiely try everyone in the phone book, ask everyone if they know of anyone else who could help.