Sick and tired of the memories!!

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Sick and tired of the memories!!
Thu, 02-02-2012 - 11:37am

My ex husband was approved for social security disability benefits and I have an appointment for today to apply for the children. While getting out their birth certificates and the custody papers I ran across the statements I typed out about some of the stuff that happened while with him. I shouldn't have read them but didn't think they would get to me!! Nothing there is anything I have forgotten so why did it make me sick to my stomach? It went away but took a couple of hours and there were some tears involved (sigh). I want to feel nothing when this stuff comes up!! GRRR!!

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Thu, 02-02-2012 - 12:07pm


I know how you feel because I get days like that.. Last week someone told me that my ex told them that he is going to be giving away the house we lived in together to his DD for a steal.. Now I got a divorce settlement and all and moved out so there is no tie there but I felt a pang of jealousy and some other feelings.. It was always his house but I always loved that house and I think about the great times I had there and that the house will be given to his DD.. I so wish he could have sold it to someone else and now the daughter is getting it makes me mad and sad at the same time.. It did sting for awhile but then a few hours later I felt better as I know I have no control over that house or what goes on..anymore...

Queen;; that means we are strong and getting stronger and that these things will pass much more quickly than before..but yeah it does sting for awhile..

I dont mind feeling the feelings and emotions because it proves we are still human and have big hearts.

take care