stood up to him last night
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| Wed, 12-28-2005 - 1:10pm |
Once again we got into a fight, where there was name calling again, but I told him that it didn't bother me and if calling me names made him feel good, to go right ahead. I said he was no better than a schoolyard bully.
Also, during one of his nice moods, he had given me a day at the spa certificate where it included a hairstyle and makeup application. Well, I would think it would be nice to go somewhere for dinner afterwards since I was all dolled up, but of course why would that occur to him, so I mentioned to him that I was going to dinner w/my girlfriend since I was going to be all dolled up and he said well I could have taken you to dinner, I said that's ok buddy you missed that boat. I'll have a better time with my girlfriend that I will with you, plus, remembering the names he called me before, you wouldn't want to be seen with a x&**#)) would you?
I figure until I leave I don't have to take bs from him anymore!

Hey Girl, ltns!
Dear wishful,
Thanks for your encouragement, I feel like I have made progress, thanks to the support of this board and friends and family, even though I sometimes feel the end is nowhere in sight, but every day I grow a little stronger and that helps me move closer to my goal.
Dear novembersky,
Thanks for your words of support as I vent once again on this board. That's probably one thing that I have never given up easily, and that is my girlfriends, while I may not be able to do as much with them as I would like to because of my husband's controlling behavior but I know they are there for me and will always support me.
Once I am out of this relationship, I could NEVER see myself wanting to be with another man ever in my life. I am perfectly happy doing things on my own, and I have actually started to do so, like go to movies that I actually like (on the sly of course whenever I can get away.)
Even though my abuser has made me think I need him, I know that I don't and he is the one that needs me.
Thanks again for your support!