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terrified with 3 kids
| Thu, 06-17-2004 - 3:17pm |
I left my huband of 12 years 8 months ago. We have 3 boys together 11, 9, 7. They have all been through so much it tears me up inside. We had to move 3 states away and leave our whole family behind to get away from him. They all 3 have emotional problem. The oldest and the youngest also have bipolar I and the youngest has PTSD and ADHD. They middle one I'm not sure what to think about him because he not acting out like the others.
I feel so guilty because I stayed so long. And at the same time I'm angry because he did this to us. We have our bad days and our good. Sometimes I have to force myself to get out of bed. I hate to cry in front of them. And it tears my heart out when they cry because they can't see grandma when they want they can't go spend the night with their cousins. They can't go help grandpa in the feild or go fishing with Pappy.
There are times I wish that I had never met this man. But then I think about the bueatiful kids he gave me. I don't want them to have the same problems as their dad does.
I just don't know what to do. I

Hi Smiley, and welcome -
There are many others here who can identify with "Mommy Guilt" (in fact, I'm going to email one of the sister board CLs about this), but I want you to understand that you are doing the best thing for them you can do, and that is giving them an abuse-free life.
Have you used your shelter network?
CL-Blueliner4
Were all in counceling myself included. The to with bipolar see their councelors twice a week. Their doctor feels that is why my husband is the way he is because it is hereditary.
And he feels that he self medicates to not feel that way. Things got really bad there at the end.
Thank you so muchfor your kind and helpful words
Hi, smiley, and welcome to one of the most wonderful places to get the support you so desperately need.
Mama Harmony