Thank you, ALL!

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Registered: 09-28-2004
Thank you, ALL!
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Tue, 02-08-2005 - 4:44pm

I posted this response under "controlling" but decided to cut and paste and let everyone know how I felt in case it got lost. My divorce court date is Valentine's Day (???). Wish me luck!!!

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I'll be sure to be here on Tuesday! It's been a short, long road with more bumps ahead, I'm sure. What counts is I'm HAPPY!!!! I'm ME!!! I'm in control! I love the freedom to do what I want to do, when I want to do it, how I want to do it, with who I want to do it. I love the FREEDOM!

I started out as "makesmehappy2004" because of someone else that made me happy. I was vulnerable and looking for happiness from anywhere. That phase is gone and I'm trying to forget about the emotional attachment I had that made me happy. Now I concentrate on ME and how I can make ME happy. Nobody else can make ME happy; only me. So as of Tuesday, I will be Free. I'm trying to forget "makesmehappy".

When I posted to this board, probably about a year ago, I didn't know what I wanted or what my life was all about. I can only say to all of you how much you helped me (as tears come to my eyes). I never realized I was being "abused". I always thought abuse just came in the form of physical. DAH!! As I continued to post and tell my life, I realized I was enduring emotional and verbal abuse. I always had thought that that's how I was supposed to live. I was never happy. I would cry so many times by myself. Nobody ever new the life I lived. Everyone was shocked when I left. I put up such a facade. I never realized how many other people are in the same sort of situation. The typical "he's a nice guy, doesn't beat me, provides for me financially, is a good father, BUT...............!" As soon as I started to feel better about myself (after seeking therapy) and starting to do for myself, he didn't like it. When I started to get a LIFE, he didn't like it. I knew then what I was in. My DD didn't like it either, and still doesn't, but she's a teenager. She's a child and we'll make it. She'll understand some day.

I keep in touch with one of the posters. She lives not all that far from me. I can't remember everybody's name that has helped me here, but to ALL of you. THANK YOU!!! I wish I could post a number of those little champagne glass icons, because I'd toast to all of you.

Thank you ever so much.

Freedom

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Registered: 11-12-2003
Tue, 02-08-2005 - 5:04pm

"My divorce court date is Valentine's Day (???)."


LMAO!


Buy yourself a dozen red roses on the way home from court!

CL-Blueliner4