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| Tue, 02-08-2005 - 4:44pm |
I posted this response under "controlling" but decided to cut and paste and let everyone know how I felt in case it got lost. My divorce court date is Valentine's Day (???). Wish me luck!!!
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I'll be sure to be here on Tuesday! It's been a short, long road with more bumps ahead, I'm sure. What counts is I'm HAPPY!!!! I'm ME!!! I'm in control! I love the freedom to do what I want to do, when I want to do it, how I want to do it, with who I want to do it. I love the FREEDOM!
I started out as "makesmehappy2004" because of someone else that made me happy. I was vulnerable and looking for happiness from anywhere. That phase is gone and I'm trying to forget about the emotional attachment I had that made me happy. Now I concentrate on ME and how I can make ME happy. Nobody else can make ME happy; only me. So as of Tuesday, I will be Free. I'm trying to forget "makesmehappy".
When I posted to this board, probably about a year ago, I didn't know what I wanted or what my life was all about. I can only say to all of you how much you helped me (as tears come to my eyes). I never realized I was being "abused". I always thought abuse just came in the form of physical. DAH!! As I continued to post and tell my life, I realized I was enduring emotional and verbal abuse. I always had thought that that's how I was supposed to live. I was never happy. I would cry so many times by myself. Nobody ever new the life I lived. Everyone was shocked when I left. I put up such a facade. I never realized how many other people are in the same sort of situation. The typical "he's a nice guy, doesn't beat me, provides for me financially, is a good father, BUT...............!" As soon as I started to feel better about myself (after seeking therapy) and starting to do for myself, he didn't like it. When I started to get a LIFE, he didn't like it. I knew then what I was in. My DD didn't like it either, and still doesn't, but she's a teenager. She's a child and we'll make it. She'll understand some day.
I keep in touch with one of the posters. She lives not all that far from me. I can't remember everybody's name that has helped me here, but to ALL of you. THANK YOU!!! I wish I could post a number of those little champagne glass icons, because I'd toast to all of you.
Thank you ever so much.
Freedom

"My divorce court date is Valentine's Day (???)."
LMAO!
Buy yourself a dozen red roses on the way home from court!
CL-Blueliner4