things feel better

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Registered: 06-15-2004
things feel better
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Thu, 07-15-2004 - 5:00pm
Things are starting to turn around and come together. Now I find myself waiting for the bottom to fall out like it always does or seems like it does. Faor those who aren't familiar with my story so to speak. I was married to a very abusive man for 12 years. I have 3 boys with him. I finally got the courage to leave him in sept 30th. and he found me oct 14th we left our home state on oct 16th and have been in hiding ever since he doesn't know where we are. The only person who does is my mom. We left everything and everybody we knew behind to escape this man.

Then to top it off 2 of my children were diagnosised with bipolar both were hospitalized to get help(both are at home). I lost a really good job. We are in a transitional housing program. I felt like I was falling apart that I was going crazy. Well I started counceling and the boys are in counceling and their medicine seems to really be working. My soon to be ex is signing over his parental rights because I have to much damaging info that could hurt him and that he would have a hard time convincing a judge to give him custody. My 2 kids who have bipolar qualified for SSI and are now receiving a check each.

The kids councelor has been really helping them out. And I'm starting to see a change in them. Which definitly makes me feel a little bit more confident in my decisions I've made for my kids. They still miss home their going to be okay. My mother is moving to a different town in our home state and once she does that we will be able to go home for a visit the divorce should be final in august(thank god). Just things happen this way for me i keep waiting for something bad to happen.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??? WHY CAN'T I JUST BE HAPPY FOR WHAT HAS HAPPENED?

CHRISTINA

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Registered: 11-12-2003
Thu, 07-15-2004 - 5:48pm

You're normal.

CL-Blueliner4

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 07-16-2004 - 12:10am

Christina...there's nothing wrong with you.

When someone shows you who they are, believe them.

- Maya Angelou