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Registered: 03-26-2004
update
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Wed, 10-12-2005 - 8:06pm
Hi to all! I havent been here in a very long time and most probably dont know me. I was divorced and had been for 12 years when I first came to these boards. My X had total control of me. I had to deal with him constantly. I was in fear for my life. I moved several times, but he always found me, and each time he found me the beatings and rape would get worse. I really and truely wanted to die. I came to this board and cried out for help. I knew what I needed to do, but was too scared to even try. That was until I came here. These women know what they are talking about ladies. Listen to them. They helped me tremendously. I have been free for almost 2 years now. He is in Jail and wont be getting out anytime soon. I have a life now in another state. I can sleep now, I still have occasional night mares, but they are just that night mares, before they were actually happening. He did almost kill me, but he didnt. I can remember how I felt back then, and I will NEVER feel that way again. The terror is gone, because I know he is behind bars and cant get to me. I am truely a FREE woman. I am still single and not really dating either. Getting close to a man is something I am just not ready for. I do hope that with my counseling I will eventually be able to love again but I am really not concerned with it right now. I am very happy just being with me, and discovering who I am. Thanks to all out there who helped me during my darkest days, and know that the sun is definately shining on me now.
Van
iVillage Member
Registered: 02-08-2005
In reply to: hurtinginga
Wed, 10-12-2005 - 8:13pm
Howdy stranger!
5yrssm 
iVillage Member
Registered: 09-29-2005
In reply to: hurtinginga
Wed, 10-12-2005 - 8:18pm
Van, so good to see you!

 

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-26-2004
In reply to: hurtinginga
Wed, 10-12-2005 - 9:37pm

wishful,

how do i get to the survival section of the webb site? I would love to go and read other success stories.

Van

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-08-2005
In reply to: hurtinginga
Thu, 10-13-2005 - 7:05am
Go to the board website or click on the domestic abuse link in my sig and the Survivor stories are down toward the bottom of the site.
5yrssm