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Very Confusing
| Mon, 01-17-2005 - 9:38pm |
I am a new member of this website and came on because someone had told me that it would be good support. I have been married for almost 4 years, I had a good marriage until about 1 1/2 year ago. My son was about 6 months old at the time, when eveything started to unravel...
My husband began to become very withdrawn, visibly depressed and much more irritated..Our arguments became increasingly more frequent and brutal. Then the physical aspect came into play. He would choke, throw, lick my face, push and degrate me. We, and he alone went to counseling, marriage and individual-What I find so confusing in all of this, is that I know that it is wrong, and I know that I don't deserve this, but I still can't bring myself to divorce him. We have been seperated for almost a year, and he is has been out of the house for that long also, but he comes and goes to see my son. He is usually crying and telling me he is sorry and it will never happen again, but it seems to always come back..
Recently he was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder and they prescribed him Lithium, to try to alleve his episode...His father was very abusive to him when he was a child, which in turn he apparently acts out on me...
I guess I am somewhat coming to the realization that they really don't change, and that I am going to have to let go of all of my dreams, in order to save my child from being exposed and probably influenced by his father's behavior towards women...
I just wanted to talk...Thanks for listening...
My husband began to become very withdrawn, visibly depressed and much more irritated..Our arguments became increasingly more frequent and brutal. Then the physical aspect came into play. He would choke, throw, lick my face, push and degrate me. We, and he alone went to counseling, marriage and individual-What I find so confusing in all of this, is that I know that it is wrong, and I know that I don't deserve this, but I still can't bring myself to divorce him. We have been seperated for almost a year, and he is has been out of the house for that long also, but he comes and goes to see my son. He is usually crying and telling me he is sorry and it will never happen again, but it seems to always come back..
Recently he was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder and they prescribed him Lithium, to try to alleve his episode...His father was very abusive to him when he was a child, which in turn he apparently acts out on me...
I guess I am somewhat coming to the realization that they really don't change, and that I am going to have to let go of all of my dreams, in order to save my child from being exposed and probably influenced by his father's behavior towards women...
I just wanted to talk...Thanks for listening...

Jenn