What is Wrong With Me!!!
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| Thu, 10-14-2004 - 11:44am |
About a month ago, we decided to take some time apart...again..and he ended up getting back toghether with his ex. He denies that they were together and says that she was only staying with him for the sake of their son. Yesterday, he was going through a large stack of paperwork and I asked him what it was..he told me that it was the statement that his ex gave when she charged him with hitting her. I was astonished. He claims that it didn't happen and that she's lying. He put all the papers into a large envelope and went into his room. I waited for him to get in the shower and I went searching for the envelope..I know it's invading his privacy..but I had to know the truth.
He had hid the envelope, hoping I wouldn't find it...under his mattress. I read through each person's statement very quickly..and what I did see..bothered me a lot. They both claimed that they were dating each other and the police report stated that she had a black eye and bruises on her hand. I feel sick to my stomach for many reasons..the fact that this happened involving him in the first place..and the fact that I actually believe his lies. I think sometimes he believes his own lies. I, stupidly, believed that he was just being a nice guy by letting her stay with him..and that they weren't together..and I believed him when he said that nothing was going on between them.
Why do I continue to let him do this to me?? I've always considered myself a strong person..but when it comes to him..I'm powerless. I can't seem to stay away from him. I've tried counseling..did not do me any good. Does anyone have any ideas...I feel like he's draining the life out of me and I'm drowning. I've never felt such helplessness in my life. It's almost as though I'm addicted to him, as stupid as that sounds. Any, and I mean ANY, advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Hey Amber -
We all got taken in by these master con artists.
CL-Blueliner4