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| Thu, 12-30-2004 - 10:52pm |
Ok, I have been here before. And I can't figure out why I keep ending up in the same place. I have been married to this man for over 8 years and we have a toddler, a little girl. You know I actually thought it had stopped. I guess it was just under the surface waiting to rear it's ugly head. This past week in front of our daughter the whole thing played out. This huge argument that, of course, was my fault and the objects and words hurling. And this precious little angel watched the whole thing. I am ashamed of myself that I have let myself become this low. I come from a nice family, how could I have married such a monster? He has had over 35+ jobs in our marriage. I have allowed him to destroy what credit I had. I couldn't finance the steam off a hot dog. He hasn't laid a hand on me in a few years. But, I feel something under the surface that is moving in that direction. I would die if my daughter learned to hate me through his behavior. I am jobless, carless and 1500 miles from home. Any advice what I should do next, without making too many waves? I guess I am still frightened of the backlash. I feel assured that this is it. You know, this is who he is and he's not changing. I just dont' know where to begin.

Hi hon, welcome -
You're already on a road that
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