why am I like this..?
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|Fri, 01-27-2012 - 8:03pm|
So last week and half, I had to go emergency out of town..the lawyer extended the date. But would you believe, I still have not served him? As I was out for 2 weeks, I said to hold off. And then today..I am again having 2nd thoughts. I really dont know what is going on with me. While I am not expecting him to change, I am maybe afraid of DD's reaction ..I honestly dont know what is wrong with me. It is a big mess. I know I can no longer afford to live on my own without support payments and that should be enough incentive. Maybe part of me just want to get back to the house and let things be. I know and I understand that it will only be temporary before some major blow up and all the hard work I have put in will be ruined.
I know all that..but still writing to ask what is it I can do to maintain focus, face the fear and do it anyway. I know I have asked this before. But I am writing again..I feel I have nobody else to talk to. Thanks.