why does my resolve keep failing..
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|Fri, 03-11-2011 - 9:27pm|
A week back I was talking about possibly getting a place and trying to leave. Today I am wishy-washy again..it is as if I just dont have the strength to deal with all that comes when and if I were to leave. My courage seems to be sapped.. I know people tell that women have left with far less. Maybe queen.brat was right. I will only leave if and WHEN my DD begs me too leave or if he is ever forced to be out. Abuse or not, I have fallen out with him..I hate just letting things be and always sort of staying in background so that things are status quo. Should I start responding/being assertive to him and wait for things to go out of hand? My therapist keeps wondering too - are you waiting for some physical harm to come to you and dd before you finally take a step? I guess I am not waiting for me..I am just afraid of going off on my own and leaving DD.I think that is what is keeping me from going. I am afraid to go and have her hate me and have her rebel by not wanting to come or see me. I just feel trapped by the whole thing.