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why? at this point?
| Thu, 04-08-2004 - 2:15pm |
Hello, I post on the sister board but not getting any responses..hah. Throwing a tantrum here..lol. Well, it's raining here now..hmmm..anyways..I went to this gathering..lots of relatives; they had this ground breaking ceremony? for water. I worked on that, and set up meetings, organized our community. Yet, a male cousin took over everything..and you know what? He and his family always do that..ridicule/humiliate etc..his sisters..one is cheating on her ol man..she does that on the side..she's 50+ and looks for younger men..disregards everybody..she's the one whom is sposed to be seeing my ex..which I don't doubt..and I hate hernhis guts..one of his other sisters lives w/a chronic alcoholic, yet she continues to let her children suffer that misery, one has kids from this man and he goes to prison, comes back..and makes her another kid.? One of their nephews runs around on his wife, but when she decides to leave, he has a heart attack, one other sister lives in a fantasy world..most of this family is diagnosed w/schizophrenia..? Why all of that? That is what really makes me angry...that they have the nerve to say stuff about me, and my brother and yet look at them? Then, when I told them..the truth? they didn't like it..well I wasn't welcome anyways Ithink but I went..to show them that they can't ever put me down..and etc. I was on the fight but nobody didn't say anything to me at all..I feel caught in the middle sometimes cuz...some other relatives don't like them and yet I am the one who speaks up and they just sit there and agree..ughhhh...it pisses me off. I guess I am kinda angry too..cuz I stayed for this? you know stbx wanted to move to okla. yet I thought of my relatives and so I stayed here and now that part is just..what do you guys think..but I know I will never ever go back to that monster stbx again..I just hate him n her..I feel so betrayed..oh and get this I don't even want to be around this easter? so is that bad..for feeling that way>> or shall I just go my own way and to heck w/family...I mean not all of them are like that, just that one is like that..I just feel like I am fighting for every breath I take these days, if not them then my boss, or someone else..lol..laters, and early happy easter, stay strong, be well stay healthy..and stay out of trouble.

The people like the rellies you're describing are the types of people that think they're above it all, perfect in every way.
CL-Blueliner4
I know this probably might not make sense, but I'm going to give it a try. If someone is sick and tired of being around a drunk you learn not to hang around in bars.
There is a whole wide world out there sweets, if that particular place doesn't fit your life anymore, maybe it's time to find another patch of land that more suits your life now.
I found in my own instance that as long as I stayed around people who didn't respect me the longer it took me to find my own self-respect. We free ourselves from an abusive relationship,,but don't notice we've attracted more of them while with our abusers. And you'll discover that you don't neccessarily have to move far to get out of their swamp of misery. It truely is amazing that just because we get out of the abuse we don't rid ourselves of abuse from our surroundings because we don't always see it. Then we wonder why we just can't find that happiness others talk about. It's what the conditioning put into us that we don't also look at our surrounding lifestyle.
Hugs and stay true to you!