Work great/not so good....

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Registered: 11-04-2004
Work great/not so good....
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Tue, 10-25-2005 - 5:29pm

Hi ladies:

Well I was debating whether to take this job in which was following a wknd of verbal abuse and emotional abuse, not only from DH but from dd too. It was one of the worst wknds yet, and here I was to start work on Monday.

Well it took all the guts and strength I could muster, said, I will do this for me and my son's college tuition and just did it !!! I went and they had a welcome sign and it "seemed" all good. Only took today for everything to change. This job is just part time and the responsibilities and attention to detail and load is that of a full timer working OT. I felt pressure and frustration and anger today, like when one of them choose to belittle of try to drive me crazy. I really don't see this lasting. I cannot take crap at home and try to learn all this new stuff at the same time.

In the meantime, I talked to counselor today, and she said she would give me appt. next Thursday, how nice could it be any longer, and I told her that is sad there is nothing sooner and she said we are short staffed. Really sad because this for me is a sanity issue, i feel bad for those who are in worse shape than me. I am grateful to her, for saying she would talk to me on the phone for as long as she could tomorrow so I know what the heck to do next cuz I am just sooo filled with frustration rite now I could scream, I should have forgone the job, and went when I was ready, but then I thought I need to get the hell out of here, and do something for me. It least for now this ain't it.

Thanks for reading this.

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Registered: 09-29-2005
Tue, 10-25-2005 - 8:14pm

Honey, I'm so sorry it didn't go better today.

 

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-04-2004
Tue, 10-25-2005 - 8:40pm

Wishful, ty, I have decided after putting up w. more of their crap tonite, coupled with the job, I will be calling them tomorrow and saying it is just not for me, and wanted to let them know asap so they would be able to fill my position with another applicant.

1 00 tomorrow afternoon can't come quick enuf.

Thanks again.

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-08-2005
Tue, 10-25-2005 - 9:10pm
I'm chiming in late here.
5yrssm 
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Registered: 11-04-2004
Wed, 10-26-2005 - 10:01am

Soooo embarrassed sorry re; the mixup geez I am out of it, it is just amazing what this stuff does to one's head. Thanks for the response. What is crazy is, he is like the kindest, greatest guy now that I have a job, I was dirt on the carpet when I was home. How does that work? He has been buggin and buggin for me to get a job, it turns out the wknd prior to the job he and DD were from hell and HE transformed into some kind of new man and her well she just cannot stop herself from being verbally abusive.

She admitted to DD she was verybally abusive to me, when DH asked her and she said sorry DAD WHAT, oh well, I will continue to look for a job 1. when I am ready, 2. when it's for me, 3. when I get healthy ...I am wayy too messy rite now.

Thanks for listening.

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-06-2005
Thu, 10-27-2005 - 12:40pm
Hang in there girl I know you can do this! Everything is stressful and difficult in the begining but you will get the hang of it. I am very proud of you and all that you are doing while in an abusive situation.