Heartbroken. Salvation questioned. :(

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Heartbroken. Salvation questioned. :(
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Mon, 08-02-2010 - 1:05pm
Hi all!

- J. Darling

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Thu, 08-05-2010 - 4:19pm

As pointed out earlier not everyone has that cataclysmic moment where they know for sure they accepted Christ.

For me I always knew there was Jesus Christ but I never fully understood. I went to multiple churches growing up. Baptist, Lutheran, Methodist. When I was in high school I wanted to be baptized and picked Catholic since everyone in Chicago seemed to be catholic and I didn't know the difference between the denominations. After my mom died in 1994, I was 37 years old I went on this search go find a church to go to. I'd had this desire for a few years to go back to church but didn't want the catholic church. I wanted the bible stories I heard when I was little. A co-worker mentioned that I should call an ex co-worker who was going to a bible study at her father's. I called and we went that night. All I know is I was touched that night and I wanted more. I didn't say "I accept Christ" I didn't say the sinner's prayer. I just knew. So I can't say I accepted Christ but I can tell you when I became a Christian. It's like it was always there in the shadows but suddenly it came into the light and was alive in me.

I was baptized in 2001 as a believer. Like your boyfriend I don't believe in infant baptism but I also don't believe baptism is a requirement for salvation. It's an outward sign of your faith and relationship and being baptized as an infant you're not able to make that decision yet. I argue with anyone who insists baptism is a requirement for grace and salvation to look at the thief on the cross. When he admitted Jesus was The Christ, Jesus told him "today you will be with me in paradise" He didn't tell him, go down and be baptized and then you can join me in paradise. That wasn't a requirement then and it's not a requirement now.

I'll get off my soapbox now.

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Wed, 08-04-2010 - 3:59pm
You are sooooo right its in His hands and His plan.

 

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Wed, 08-04-2010 - 1:27pm
Thanks!

I agree - that this point seems like splitting hairs. Salvation is salvation, whether it's through some cataclysmic event in the later years, or being raised w/ a foundation in Christ.

I know I'm covered. I guess it's not up to me to convince him. It's up to him to trust me and my relationship w/ God.

I do my best to make it visible in my daily life. I'm sorry that he can't/won't seem to see it.

But, like all relationships, if it's ment to be God will work it out. If it's not, then He's got something else in mind for me.

- J. Darling


The hands that hold my heart...

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- J. Darling

Singehttp://img.photobucket.com/albums/v244/JDarling/Headshots/Picture001.jpgr, Songwriter, Author for Celebr

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Wed, 08-04-2010 - 12:15pm
Faith Alone, Grace Alone.

 

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Tue, 08-03-2010 - 6:34pm

So glad you have wonderful Christian sisters around you.

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Tue, 08-03-2010 - 4:07pm
Thanks all for giving me a venue to vent all this. It's hard to describe. Something tells me there is more to it than he's saying.

I too believe that we are called to love, not judge. Yes, we can discern right and wrong. We can judge actions, words, etc, but intent? Those are so subconcious that we don't even realize what our true intentions are until they are looking back in hindsight.

Part of me has to wonder what's going on with him in a deeper level. I know with many of us that are divorced, we get scared of further commitment - not wanting it to "end up like the last one". So we sometimes feel the need to find someone "perfect" or the "perfect" relationship - rather than be willing to take that leap of faith and commit anyway to someone that is His work in progress.

It just really stung (and still stings) that him (and now his mother, whom I've always gotten along with) doubt my salvation. I always take what those close to me say and evaluate it's merit. Sometimes there IS something I can learn and grow from. And, yes, I do need to find a home church, and I have been reading my Bible more. Thankfully, my best friends are my Christian sisters, so I've always had that perspective when seeking guidance in my life.

I kinda feel like it's splitting hairs - whether I can pin point a single day in my 30 years of life where I can say "Yes, I've been saved," rather than saying "Christ is, and has always been, my foundation."

Afterall, God's grace is sufficient and (I believe) He's there for whoever comes to Him no matter the road they take to get there.

- J. Darling


The hands that hold my heart...

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- J. Darling

Singehttp://img.photobucket.com/albums/v244/JDarling/Headshots/Picture001.jpgr, Songwriter, Author for Celebr

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Tue, 08-03-2010 - 11:55am
I'm sorry for your troubles and will keep you in my prayers.

 

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Registered: 09-14-2006
Mon, 08-02-2010 - 7:00pm

Hugs

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