My dad - pedophelia ???

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My dad - pedophelia ???
Wed, 10-08-2003 - 10:02am
My dad - pedophelia ???

from: shari1359

date: Aug-10 6:45 pm

I WANTED TO RE POST THIS & REPLY TO THIS PERSON TO MAKE SURE THAT SHE GOT IT SINCE THE POST WAS OLDER!!



I'm 36 years old and was physically and emotionally abused by my mother and father. I have vague memories of sexual abuse by my father, but, nothing substantial enough, mostly circumstantial. I have literally no memories of my life before the age of 10 except for example - my father took showers with me until I was almost 10. I had very frequent bladder infections that went untreated, even though my mother knew. I suffered from a dislocated hip when I was 7 or 8 and couldn't walk for 6 months. I remember "playing" alone and imagining I was being kidnapped or raped (6-8 YO), but I didn't realize why I wanted to do that. When I was 17 or 18, my dad took me to his hunting camp for an evening, alone. He had a candlelight dinner for me along with steak. During that dinner, he specifically told me my mother had "no idea how to please a man", along with other miscellaneous information about my mom I really didn't care about. I have no memory of what happened after that, except the next morning I was very sick and had to go home. A couple of months later, I found a pair of my underwear stuck deep down underneath some of his tools in his closet at the camp.

I had a bit of a recall in therapy, but that was during the time when "false memory syndrome" was rampant and I dismissed it as just that - a false memory brought on by therapists. Not to mention, my sisters, my mother and the rest of my family thought I was crazy and didn't believe me.

Well, now I'm beginning to question if my memory was false or not because of recent events. My dad's wife (my dad divorced my mother years ago) called me today. Her and my dad just had a fight and while she was describing this fight, the conversation made a turn for the worse.

Apparently, my dad hasn't touched her for almost 3 years. She had at first believed he was cheating on her, so she started following him and searching through his stuff. She even tracked his computer. It is UNBELIEVABLE what she has found and it disturbs me to the point I may need some heavy-duty therapy again - that's if I don't have a nervous breakdown.

She found pedophilia on the computer along with female bondage XXX sites. She saw him masturbating to pictures of children, when he wasn't aware she was home. Then, the real problem: She found duct tape and twine in a paper bag and under it, WAS A PICTURE OF MY 4 YO NEICE (my sister's daughter)!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate to say this about my own father, but, I wouldn't be surprised to find out he was a kidnapper, of children or adults. I really do hate to say that because it isn't nice to say things like that about their father's, but, I've always had that feeling in the back of my head.

Now I'm beginning to wonder if I wasn't crazy. If maybe he really is like this and his wife is just starting to put 2 and 2 together with everything she's witnessed.

I have no idea what to do. I'm so emotionally upset. I want to warn authorities about him, but, I have no proof he's done anything. I want to warn my sister, but, she doesn't believe I was ever molested by him to begin with.

UGH!! WHAT DO I DO!!

PLEASE GET HELP! DO WHATEVER IT TAKES B/C THIS MAN NEEDS TO BE STOPPED! U ARE PROB NOT THE ONLY GIRL THAT HE HAS DONE THIS TO & IF SOME1 DOES NOT PUT A STOP TO IT THIS WILL KEEP HAPPENING! IT STARTED SOMEWHERE BUT NOW IT HAS TO STOP SOMEWHERE! DONT BE AFRIAD! WHO CARES WHAT OTHER PPL SAY/THINK! U KNOW WHAT WENT ON & U KNOW HOW HE IS, LET IT BE KNOWN! PPL LIKE THIS NEED TO BE STOPPED BEFORE THEY GET CARRIED AWAY & THE KIDS HAVE TO SUFFER! I AM SO SORRY THAT ALL THIS HAPPENED TO YOU, THIS IS TERRIBLE, BUT YOU ARE A TRUE SURVIVOR & PROBABLY VERY STRONG! DO WHAT IS IN YOUR HEART! IF SOME1 DOESNT STOP HIM HE WILL ONLY GET WORSE! KEEP AN OPEN EYE ON YOUR NEICE, SHE MAY KNOW SOMETHING, BUT SOUNDS TO ME THAT HE PROB DRUGGED YOU SOMEHOW, PROB MORE THAN ONCE! AND AS FAR AS YOUR MOTHER GOES SHE SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER & GOTTEN YOU AWAY FROM HIM SO SHE IS ALSO TO BLAME! BE STRONG & REMEMBER, HE MIGHT HAVE HURT YOU MANY TIMES BEFORE, BUT DONT LET HIM HURT YOU ANYMORE, I KNOW HOW THAT GOES! GOOD LUCK & MY THOUGHTS ARE W/YOU & YOUR NEICE!