So confused about my boundaries....
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|Thu, 02-07-2013 - 5:22pm|
as I've posted in the past my sister was diagnosed with lung cancer which has spread to her brain. On Dec 30 she was airlifted to the hospital and placed on a ventilator due to massive blood clots in her lungs. I am pleased to say she remains in the rehab hospital but very weak and unable to walk at all. Her husband and children spend as much time as they can with her which is understandable since she is too weak for chemo which might make this so much worse. She was strong enough to fight for her life on the ventilator but without chemo the cancer will continue to spread.
I've posted about the strong boundaries I have placed with my Mother due to her narcisstic behavior. It seems confusing now because I don't want to rock the boat and make things worse for anyone BUT she is at her worst ever! She constantly criticizes my sister (yep my dying sister) and her husband and children. I can't take it....she now questions my behavior during those frightening hours we were told that she would die. My Mother now says she always knew that she was going to live and she doesn't understand why we all overreacted the way we did. (this is not true....we were told multiple times with her in the room that the clots were so massive they didn't see it going any other way). She's cocky and doesn't stop bringing up an argument that she had with my sister a few years back where my sister called her a miserable old hag. My Mother is still angry at my sister for this. She made a comment the other day on the phone that she hoped my sister learned something from this....my sister? What about her? I don't call her frequently and I can't take the additional stress of my Mother and her complaints. She even complained that my sister's husband and children spend too much time with her in the rehab hospital. Seriously? We prayed so hard for my sister's recovery from the blood clots knowing it could only be for a short time due to the cancer. If your spouse was in a rehab hospital with cancer wouldn't you be with that person as much as you can? My Mother is insane!
I need to find some extra $$ to continue seeing my counselor. Since I went on medicare he isn't an option. He is giving me a discount and I would love to see him monthly but I can't afford it.
Anyway there is more to this and it's all ugly....my family is so broken but it's my family.
Thanks for letting me vent.