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|Wed, 08-20-2003 - 4:36pm|
Well, I feel like I am the butt of the joke now, like she is laughing at me because I came to talk to her...I thought that this would be a healing process for me...that I did it to make myself feel better and just to know that I tried would make me feel better. I don't want to be friends with her or start hanging out because I am not over what has been done, but I just want to be civil. I don't want to have that feeling hanging over me to where I would be like "oh damn" each time I walk through the doors of the apartment...it hurts to be treated like crap.
But my dilema is that my best friend, who was also involved in this, is mad at me for apolgizing...she thinks that my apology was a sign of weakness and I let her win because my brother's girlfriend didn't deserve any kind of apology or any act of kindness from me...I tried to explain myself to my best friend, but yet, she is upset at me because I let her down...I am a strong individual, but I am so tired of having to always "favor" everyone else's thoughts before my own...I guess I am asking if anyone can help me and help me figure out if I did the right thing or did I just make a fool of myself? What can I say to my best friend so that she isn't disappointed in me? My best friend means the world to me and she's always been supportive with everything that I have done, but she is upset at me because she saw what my brother's girlfriend did to me...how she disrepected me and treated me like I was inhuman. My best friend saw how much pain I was in and thinks that I deserve to be treated better.
Edited 8/20/2003 5:11:17 PM ET by phanl_78