Tried everything to please my mother
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|Sun, 04-06-2003 - 10:36am|
Most you remember me from trying to move out of my mom's house.
I've tried all my life to please my mother and no matter what I do...I just can't seem to do it. I've stayed here in this city way past my time just to please her and help her out. I've been miserable and all I keep getting is grief about it.
Last March I finally made the decision that at age 26 I need to learn to live on my own. My move date is Friday and she's made me feel guity about it it every single day since there.
I'm bawling my eyes out today wondering if I made te wrong decision but I wouldn't know because i've never really made a decision for me. I'm sick and tired of the control she has over me and making me feel bad about moving out.
Don't I deserve a chance t live on my own?
She makes these smart comments about me always having to do stuff and she can never use my car. I always make my car available to her and when she decides she doesn't wnat ot use it she always puts it back on me. She also makes this refence to me beign just like my father ..my father left her...my father hurt her. I don't think I've hurt her. I nothing like him... I did great things in high schoool and im finishing college even after I quit .....doesn't that count for something? I've never put my family in danger never been in jail did drugs or pregant.....doesn't htat count for something.....all i've ever wanted was some freedom to be me without being criticized.
Thanks for listening....