What to think....any advice??
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|Wed, 11-12-2003 - 2:19pm|
Everything that happens to me that is good it happened to her and was better. My BF and I went on a vacation for our one year anniversary and all she did was critizied our destination and talk about where her and her husband are going for their one year. Granted went went to a little city that was only 5 hours from where we live for the weekend and they are going to a tropical paradise for a honeymoon they never had, but we are saving money and trying to get a good start in life...they just don't care about saving anything and spend spend spend. My BF and I are trying to get our debits paid off and finish school before we get married instead of struggling after like they are now. Marriage is hard enough without adding financial problems or school problems in the mix.
Anyways, up until now I have taken everything with a grain of salt and have not held any resentment nor bad feelings towards her, even when she hurt my feeling on plenty of occiasions, but last night might have been the last straw for me. She is unable to have kids because of a rather embarrassing lifestyle when she was in her teens and early 20's. She was always the wild child of the family and rebeled against my parents from the day she was born. It 100% is pyshically impossible for her to have kids without invitro and even with the invitro her chances are very slim. Last night her husband was talking to my BF about them having a child. Her husband told my BF that "Well her infirtility runs in the family and she (meaning me) too will have to have invitro too." Which is total bull. She can't have kids because of the numerous STD's that she had when she was younger, not because of anything in our genes. I am perfectly healthy and am able to get pregnant without any problems. I'm really hurt that she brought me down and made me look like I have this problem when I don't and included me in her lie to him.
I just don't understand how to handle all of this. She is not the type that anyone can talk to about anything. She always has been that type of "I'm right and everyone else in wrong" and rebels against any kind of critizium even if it's good. You tell her not to jump and she says watch me. I feel sometimes that I just want to be seperated from her for awhile. I don't think that she would even really miss me because she has her "best friend" a girl that she used to work with around all the time. I'm just getting to the point where I don't want to even be around her. She always tells people how close we are but in reality we are such polar opposites that we could never be really close. And, even when we are getting along and having fun together, something will happen and she'll say or do something bad to me.
I guess I'm just looking for any comments that anyone might have or maybe if someone else is going through something similar. I'm about at the end of my rope. Thank you in advance for any thoughts anyone has and thank you for reading.