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|Sat, 08-02-2014 - 3:49pm|
im tying my self in knots right now, i never usually post anything on sites, but i just feel the need to vent and hopefully one of you may have a magical answer?
i have a family wedding tomorrow----- i dont want to go...... now before you judge....
not only is the wedding 100 miles away, meaning a 200 round trip in one day....... i have work at 6 am monday morning.
also my dog is sick, and i feel about leaving her for 15 hours in a day, rather than 9 when im at work (and no i dont have anyone who can come and check on her)
now the rest of the story
there is this big family arguement thats been going on for 3 years that im part of...but havent actually done nothing its all aound me pepole arguing about me etc
and they will all be there tomorrow and they are the sort to bring it up straight away, i dont feel its fair to the bride or the groom, and while i will try to walk away i know it wont work, unfortunalty part of it is with my dad, so i know ppl will come up to us, and it will be a huge arguement and im so stressed right now as it is, and the thought of all the driving and then all of that, and theyve already threated on facebook to bring up family shit from 30 years ago!, so much that the bride threatneed to cancel!
but of course if i dont go there will be a backlash coz i havnt gone, im just trying to figure out whats worse?? to not go and get slagged off and upset the bride by not going? or to go and there potenitally be a punch up? meaning the wedding will be ruined, just to say i wouldnt start anything i just know what my family is like
it doesnt help i havnet seen any of them except my dad for 3 years, and that last year my mum died (parents were divorced) and they all got annoyed they werent invited to the funeral.... not undertsnading that my mum actually said she didnt want them there...........
my sister from a different dad doesnt want me to go, but she understands she doesnt see how i cant??
feeling very lost.