why would he say this?

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Registered: 02-13-2006
why would he say this?
Fri, 05-16-2014 - 1:15pm

Ok I don't want this to be a novel here .Basically background info about me and my friend. We've known each other for 4 years now. We had had a fwb thing awhile back.I stopped it because that's not what I had wanted and I knew it.Nothing but friends only.No hanky panky or anything.I had grown to talk to him about anything that suits me because I was that comfortable with him.He's had gf's since..nothing stable. Well now in the present. He has made it clear to me that he doesn't want to have sex with me and be friends.How the sex thing came up is because one night during one of his calls..he had said that how he had wanted me to come over so I could lay in bed with him.Well the next day I e-mailed him saying that how he had had his chance and long time ago and that's not what I want..I deserve better.Well he of course denied saying that he said that and that's when he put in his e-mail to me that how he doesn't want to have sex with me and sorry if I had taken it that way!He see's me only as a friend and I actually believed him since it's been 4 years now and the past is the past.He has called me to chit chat with me.Even had told me that at one point he had almost come over to crash on my couch because he had wanted to get away from his home for awhile..just feeling restless I guess.I had been suprised to hear this and that's when I had asked why and he had said it was during the time when he had been going through some stuff with his now ex partner.I had told him that he could have crashed on my couch if he had needed to.NOw moving to this week.He has has taken 1 week vacation from his work and before he had taken the vacation...last month he was getting ready to go out of state for 1 month.He had wanted to see me before he was to leave.Well I had been dealing with some things and I wasn't ready to see him and I had told him that I would see him once he got back.Anyways fast forward now to this week.He's on vacation.He's called me 3 times wanting to play pool.Of course since he's called during the weekday and very late..I had told him that I couldn't come over.The last call I had been talking to him after midnight and he had stated that I could have already been over to his place by now.I don't live far from him.Now comes yesterday. I had called him around 830pm to ask him if I can come over to play pool now.He had somehwere he needed to be so I said ok..call me when you get back home.Well when he had called me..it was 1035pm.He asked me if I was still coming over and I said I'm on my way. Well I got there and he had the pool table set up and everything and had the TV on watching a basketball game. There was nothing out of the ordinary in our interaction.I felt that we were just 2 friends playing pool.We played about 3 games and then started watching in the livingroom on the couch a movie on TV. Well he had had some royal crown and I took a remainder of Pepsi to drink.Later I drank some of his Royal crown with the Pepsi to try to delude the drink because I don't drink that often.Anyways so during the 1st movie he started to drift off to sleep.I on the other hand had started to feel the effects of the drink.I had stated to him that I could sleep on the couch and he can go to bed since he was dozing off and on but he stayed watching tv .Then as I was getting up to pour out the remainder of the drink in the sink...I felt the effects still so I said that I'm going to lay down.So I went to his room and layed down trying to go to sleep.It was by now maybe 130am?He stayed out in the living room..at first he was sleeping or dozing off here and there and then he started to watch movie #2.I had seen the beginnig of movie # 2 but then I needed to go lay down. Now mind you..as I was heading over to his house earlier..I went through a DUI checkpoint.By the time I was in the line..they had started to shut it down so they just had us drive through.So anyways I'm laying in bed trying to go to sleep because by now I wasgetting a slight headache from the alcohol.I could here the TV on in the living room and also the TV on in another room on. Well during me trying to get some sleep..the light was turned on in the bedroom..I quickly pulled the blanket over my head to shut out the light.I didn't think anything of it.I'm thinking I need to get some sleep and then later the lights come on and here is my friend telling me that he feels uncomfortable having me spend the night.Now mind you..this is the same person who had this week and a month ago wanting me to come over to drink some wine with him.Now..the times he would be calling me...if I had gone over to drink wine...i would have crashed at his place...I don't drink and drive.SO..when he's saying this to me I'm confused.I asked him why he's uncomfortable having me spend the night and he didn't want to say why.He just said that he can't explain..he just feels uncomfortable. Now I feel bad because I don't want anyone to feel uncomfortable in their own home BUT really??!! You're going to say this NOW knowing that you have made it ok for me to spend the night if I had gone over to drink wine one of those other nights recently? SO needless to say I left feeling hurt and embarrased,confused, and for the 1st time..I felt like a stranger.I never was inappropriate or disrespectful the entire time I was there. I actually thought it was just 2 friends hanging out and one crashing on the couch or bed ..not thinking he was at all uncomfortabe about this since he never made it an issue...so I left and I have been crying all day because I didn't expect this from him.So I e-mailed him letting him know how he made me feel and that how as a friend he should have been able to tell me why all of a sudden he's uncomfortable having me sleep over.I mean this is 4 yrs knowing this person so he's not a stranger and I fell that he could have just talked to me about why sleeping over would make him uncomfortable.I honestly thought that we had by passed all of the past.I believed we had....I never want to make ANYONE uncomfortable but to hear it from someone whom I thought was a friend of 4 yrs..I don't understand where he's coming from with this.Basically there is always a reason behind someone being uncomfortable...I want to know what that is.I think I deserve to know...if the tables were turned...I would know IF I would want someone to crash at my place..I would know if it would make me uncomfortable....if it did..I would never offer it...