End of the rope?

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Registered: 06-22-2008
End of the rope?
Fri, 07-04-2014 - 11:24pm

It's the 4th of July, at one time this was my favorite holiday. The parades, friends, family parties. Fireworks. That was all until 11 years ago. When I met my husband. For the past 11 years I haven't gone to one cookout, fireworks display or parades. If I knew then what I knew now. Am I upset about this no. Do I feel like I sacrifice my likes for him YES. How does one change who they are so much? I recently had a blow out with my husband about our relationship. We've been able to communicate well in our years together and I've never felt like this, but I am at the end of my straw with him . It seems that nothing I say he hears. Nothing I do is appreciated, thanked for - it is just assumed. Where did I give him the impression that this is acceptable? How do I make him see that I am serious when I say I am close to the end? I can't even go to bed without feeling aggression towards him. Did you give up everything you had or ever feel like it was slipping away? How did you rescue it? I am afraid to be on my own-there is a child involved but I am sick of putting my likes aside. Child and I already do so much without him, that I sometimes get the impression people think I am single. Child gets upset when he chooses not to participate with us in daily activities. How do I get him to see he is bringing this house down. Child is old enough to see what is going on, I worry about how this may affect child in future as well. Am I over reacting? Anyone else have this problem? Anything similar? I hate to give up, but I am not sure how many more 4th of  July 's I am willing to miss.